Growing Knots

In two weeks I get on a plane to
Thailand. I’ll be gone for a month. My ticket was only purchased a few days ago
and I don’t have one thing figured out for once I’m in Thailand. I know the
people I want to see, and they know I’ll be in Thailand in March. But I don’t
actually have a schedule figured out for once I’m there.

 

You see, I hate logistics. Even just
thinking about having to plan it out gives me a knot in my stomach. Ironic, since
I spent the last two and a half years doing logistics for missions teams. There
is something about having to make a decision that makes my introvert eat my
extrovert. Sure when I’m leading a team and am forced to, I can make decisions
and do logistics. But I still might sit and stare at the phone for 30 minutes
with dread knowing that I have to make a two-minute phone call (yep, I’m a girl
who doesn’t like the phone -and I’m currently staring at my cell as I have a
call I need to make).

 

Don’t worry. I’m not completely
slacking off and leaving it all until I get to Thailand (my mom might have a
heart attack if I did that). My to-do list and packing list are slowly growing
and being marked off. And the knots in my stomach are growing from having to do
logistics, from knowing that God has something big waiting for me in Thailand,
and from knowing that I’ll be missing out on things and missing people here at ‘home’. The good news is that I know it’s worth all the knots in my stomach.