There are probably about a million things that I need to process (got to love those AIM terms), yet half of them I don’t even know what they are. And another part I am to scared of what the outcome of the process might be, so I just continue to ignore it.
I finally decided that I am going to stop just ignoring some of these things and actually take the time to process, create some goals, etc. and what happens… I get sick. What else would happen? It seems that each time I have made the decision to take some time for myself since moving to Georgia something stops me from being able to fully have the time that I desperately need. Why? I don’t know. Am I purposefully sabotaging myself? I hope not. Does it mean that it’s not time to process all that is stuck in my head and in my heart? Maybe? Is it God? Is it the enemy? I don’t know.
So what do I do? What do I pray? I guess I pray that I will find the time to process all that I need to, at a time where I will be able to get all out of it that I need to.
.. and I will pray that clarity, focus, discernment and wisdom fall down like rain when you do begin to process ..
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I’ve heard that if you ignore an elephant standing in your room long enough, he never goes away, never changes, never does anything but gets in your way & is a glaring reminder that he’s always gonna be there … So, I think it’s time to face the elephants!
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Holler if you need help with the stampede …
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Love, mom
I love you girl and I’ll pray that you get time to process at the right time. Whenever you are ready, we are all here to help you out. Much love sister… much much love.