Let’s face it, I am almost 27 and still single. If just being single wasn’t hard enough it seems like the older you get, the worse it gets…
This is the time where we start to make jokes – ‘Never Been Kissed’, ’30 year old virgin’. The media makes us believe that you are single because you aren’t pretty enough, smart enough, making enough money, successful enough, etc. And well, anyone that knows me has probably figured out that although I do care about what I look like, it is not the #1 priority in my life. So you’re gonna have to take me as I am. $, popularity, and success just don’t seem to fit next to the job title ‘missionary’.
So if we know that the media is wrong when it comes to these things, why am I still single?
Well an obvious reason is because of some of the major areas in my life that have needed an overhaul by the Lord over the years. And praise Jesus He was faithful to do it & is continuing to!
But I would have to say the other reason is the lies others have spoken over me. From being teased by peers, having basically every male authority reject or hurt me until the last few years. Having people in authority, that I love or look up to say things like: ‘do you even like boys?’, ‘do you want to get married?’, ‘you’re not pursuable’. ~ no matter how many years ago they were spoken the enemy enjoys reminding me of these words and many others. And even though they shouldn’t, they still hurt. The people in my life who should have been speaking life, purpose, and destiny were often speaking death without even realizing it. The reality is that even though I know it is a lie, there is part of me that believes I am not ‘pursuable’ – that I am not worthy of a relationship. Yes I know it’s a U.G.B. (unGodly belief). But I don’t know how to change it… it’s going to have to be something that the Lord does in me. Or maybe it will just have to wait until there is a Godly Holy Spirit Filled Man who has the courage to ask this Crazy Strong Holy Spirit Filled Woman of God out on her first date.
…I didn’t write this blog in order to get a bunch of comments posted about how I am believing a lie and am pursuable (I know that already). I posted more so that people know where I am at. And hopefully to remind all of us how important our words really can be. That I believe this lie because of what people either said to me or around me. Even if our comments aren’t aimed at the person, speaking down/negatively/death about anyone can alter the life of someone else forever.
I heart you sister and I smell what your steppin’ in. Much love! One day our princes will come. : )
Don’t forget my strength is positivity.
Truth . Lies . Singleness . Friendship . Dating . Marriage . we continue to lift your life up to Him in prayer with complete confidence that He will one day (soon) bring a Godly Holy Spirit Filled Missionary Loving Man into your life – for the rest of your life.
We know that all good things come to those who wait and it is His timing that matters. (It’s the mom in me that added the “soon” above 😉
I’ve been praying for your husband since you were in preschool – he’s out there – guess he must be kinda busy. So, until he’s “finished,” enjoy this season of friends and the WR. It’s only gonna get better!
Love you sweetie,
Mom
I love what your mom wrote that she’s been praying for your husband since your were in preschool!! How awesome is that?? The good news is: everything is in God’s timing 🙂 That’s what keeps me going! Love ya and Miss ya!
I’m 28 and single (working with AIM as well!). I just wanted to let you know that I understand your struggle, and while I don’t have any answers (I kinda think we aren’t supposed to…singleness is an amazing yet challenging, often lonely and definitely misunderstood journey with our Bridegroom) I just wanted to say thank you for being honest and making me feel not so alone. 🙂 I honestly don’t know if you will have a husband on earth, but I do know that we are all promised a wedding day!
I just wanted to say: “I hear ya!” and those pictures you posted with this blog are AMAZINGLY beautiful! WOW! 🙂
God has the perfect plan for you and has awesome blessings! If you were married (especially with kids) you might not be able to to the work for Him you are doing now and have been doing so far! Sowing into God’s Kingdom has eternal value.
I pray you will find the right person and or the right person will find you at the right time and that you will know that you know that you know! And no rush… I rushed and look where it got me… To start with something positive, I do have a beautiful gift of God (my son Xander), but a divorce because of adultery… Not exactly God’s plan I believe…
My beautiful gift is preventing me from going where I want to go right now, but I believe God can work around that…
God bless you, my awesome sister!