So if we know that the media is wrong when it comes to these things, why am I still single?

 

 

Well an obvious reason is because of some of the major areas in my life that have needed an overhaul by the Lord over the years. And praise Jesus He was faithful to do it & is continuing to!

 

 

But I would have to say the other reason is the lies others have spoken over me. From being teased by peers, having basically every male authority reject or hurt me until the last few years. Having people in authority, that I love or look up to say things like: ‘do you even like boys?', ‘do you want to get married?', ‘you're not pursuable'. ~ no matter how many years ago they were spoken the enemy enjoys reminding me of these words and many others. And even though they shouldn't, they still hurt. The people in my life who should have been speaking life, purpose, and destiny were often speaking death without even realizing it. The reality is that even though I know it is a lie, there is part of me that believes I am not ‘pursuable' – that I am not worthy of a relationship. Yes I know it's a U.G.B. (unGodly belief). But I don't know how to change it... it's going to have to be something that the Lord does in me. Or maybe it will just have to wait until there is a Godly Holy Spirit Filled Man who has the courage to ask this Crazy Strong Holy Spirit Filled Woman of God out on her first date.

 

...I didn't write this blog in order to get a bunch of comments posted about how I am believing a lie and am pursuable (I know that already). I posted more so that people know where I am at. And hopefully to remind all of us how important our words really can be. That I believe this lie because of what people either said to me or around me. Even if our comments aren't aimed at the person, speaking down/negatively/death about anyone can alter the life of someone else forever.